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Wednesday, February 25th, 2004
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| Time: | 4:14 pm. |
| Mood: |  bored. |
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caffeine and nicotine (sp?) the greatest combo. who wants to go to starbucks.
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Tuesday, February 24th, 2004
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today was fucking boring. bleh. yeah... i need to take a fucking shower. i don't wanna though. but i will... eventually. haha. excuse my rambling please
i miss the show weinerville. hahahhahhahaahahahah. fuckin hilarious.
i<3gwenstefani. saturday amanda,eda, and whoever else and i are going to play tennis !!!!! i can't wait ! yay for tennis. lol, and not fuck tennis love sasha, holly. so eff you. i've been listening to billie holiday alot latly, i think she's wonderful. i love jazz so much.
everyone should listen to 101.9 on the radio. BEST god damn radio station.
My love, don't explain
What is there to gain
Skip that lipstick
Don't explain
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Monday, February 23rd, 2004
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went to cinderella saturday. everyone was suprised as to seeing me there because i wasn't going to go. pics courtesy of dennis
http://www.livejournal.com/users/melancholycunt/28949.html?#cutid1
i had fun. i danced with my boy Xavier. how i love him. i gave him my number sometime during the dance so if he calls that would be hella cool. i hung out with chris,angie,jessica,ed,and stacy, for part of the night. everyone looked hott. lol. i danced with chris, it was nice, i miss him alot. i had some dances with zei, which was quite lovely, he is a gentleman<3. after the dance, angie,chris,chad,this girl alex, and i all went to cloverleaf. we had pizza, and everyone met my mom lol.
we stayed there until about 130am. and we all went home. it was fun. not as fun as last years, but still fun.
ANGIE ! send me your photos !
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Saturday, February 21st, 2004
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i need holly.
i need eda.
i need to talk to someone.
a girl preferably.
i miss bein a kid. no worries. no boy troubles.
i'm going to start to take some yoga classes, anyone wanna join with me ?
i just need me and my best friends right now. no bullshit.
i guess it sounds cheesie but i need to find my inner peace.i need to come to a few conclusions. i need to make an appointment with my therepist. haha. she's a girl, she'll understand.
i'm not depressed or anything. just confused about how to handle certain situations. advice is always welcome.
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Friday, February 20th, 2004
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minus-heroes have some shows lined up for ya
March 5th
@ The R.A.T. Nest!
Happy Birthday Sue!
March 12th
@ Idle Kids
WITH:
Pub Life (possibly)
UPR!S!NG
Hew
VietCong
w00t for that. you all should go. these shows will be better than the last one you attended. i promise !
wow. i'm in such a good mood right now. i just wish i could go to cinderella.hm.oh well, 2 more years of dances. lalala.i will say this again. dashboard NEEDS to come back so my darling amanda and i can go. october of 03' was the best month ! aside from me getting pneumonia. and halloween was fun too. i was a hot cow girl. and next year i will be making my debut as audrey hepburn, via breakfast at tiffanys of course. DENNIS ! we must watch breakfast at tiffanys. and thats that. sorrie for the rambling. i'm bored. i'll leave you with this...
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Thursday, February 19th, 2004
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my date for cinderella cancelled out on me last minute. what am i going to do ? i have my dress and everything. and on saturday night while everyone is out havin a blast at the dance, i'll be here on the computer. i didn't go to the howie day concert on the account of me being sick. why does everything suck ass right now. so far, this whole year has been bad. i feel as if i haven't got any friends anymore.holly's always at driver's ed and amanda's always with dennis and chelsea and such. eda's away for every weekend until i don't know when. oh well. what can i do. i need to get out. i need to move far away and leave all of this behind.
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Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
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| Time: | 9:26 pm. |
| Mood: |  content. | | Music: | ender will save us all : dashboard. |
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so yeah, i'm sick. bleh. it sucks, i just hope that i don't get pneumonia again.fuck that shit.today was fun. i went over daves and watched bio dome with those kids. and then carlye and ryan came over,and then i went over carlye's house. haha. her puppie is soooooo cute !
today in my english class, we read a poem entitled "we wear the mask", and it talks about how when people go out into the world they put on a mask, and they hide their emotions in until they finally think it's safe to let it all out. i find that poem so true in every aspect of what it speaks.i don't think that i do that, because i like to keep my emotions out in the open. but alot of people keep things bottled up inside, which really isn't good.
that's all i have to say for now.
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Monday, February 16th, 2004
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holly, becca and i were at the mall, and we saw billy idol. and i made out with him. true story.
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my parents might be getting a divorce. i haven't any idea what to do. IM me if you want to know what happened last night, i feel that putting it in here for all the world to see is just letting go of too much information. if anyone has any advice as to what to do. tell me it would be greatly appreciated. i just don't know what to do about everything. everything was going so well, and then yeah.
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Sunday, February 15th, 2004
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got my lip pierced last nite.
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Friday, February 13th, 2004
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today, kelli and holly came with me to get a turtle. she's a red eared slider, and i named her amour. and i <3 her. hehe. after that, they came over and we hung out for a little while, they left, and i just sat here and watched my turtle. i want more ! well yeah...
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Thursday, February 12th, 2004
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| Time: | 4:45 pm. |
| Mood: |  artistic. | | Music: | none,or other. |
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FIN.
so this week has been interesting. found out alot of things. i think cindie is gonna be cool, big dinner at amanda's. wooo. everything is okay with everyone, and i feel so content about it. i think i was supposed to schedual like last week, but we never got called down. hm. i want to take french. hehe. and i think eda should teach me some of her language too, so when i go over there i can actually understand what her parents are saying, lol. speaking of eda, she made me the CUTEST card today. it made me sooo happy. tankies, and i'm making you the best one right as we speak. so yay for that. well i'm done, faguary=awesome <3sasha. haha holly. fin again
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Wednesday, February 11th, 2004
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| Time: | 6:12 pm. |
| Mood: |  angry. | | Music: | pin : yeah yeah yeahs. |
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i hate you and i officially regret everything, including meeting you. i will not go to the howie day concert with you, you are not worth it, or my time for that matter. i fucking hate you with all of my heart, you are a fake and a fonie. i wish i never laid eyes on you. why am i wasting perfectly good journal space on you ? to end this i just would like to say, you are a waste of perfectly good space in the world.i hate the way you tell me all of the bad things about me,in hopes of me becomming something that you'd actually want. i hate the way you take no responsibility for your actions. i hate the way you don't think about anybody but yourself. and most of all i hate the way you're so fake.
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Tuesday, February 10th, 2004
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i just watched uptown girls. best movie. i didn't go to school yesturday. slept all day. no school for me again. cramps// those suck. not looking forward to v-day. i asked josh to dinner, but i don't think he wants to hang out or anything. oh well. i'm becoming livejournal retarted. i can't figure out anything on here anymore. gawd damnit. eda and i need to hang out... i think. haha. i'm getting a turtle sometime this week. i'm getting the howie day tix today. so i can't stop fretting about that. i've never been to clutch cargos before, so comment if you have and tell me about the venue. i have no idea what to expect.i want new pumps. yeah, cindie tickets are on sale this week. i have yet to find out if dan is still taking me. if not then i'm screwed. yeah. well i'm gonna go. this post is too long//
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Saturday, February 7th, 2004
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wow. just wow. i had so much fun. the show fucking kicked ass. to all the kids in dealy plaza... you are all great.. you are all so talented and i'm glad to see you not wasting it.
AS FOR DENNIS ! i can't believe you stood out while amanda and i skanked our asses off to aha. you totally missed it. therefore i am disowning you.
lol. i love you ! haha.
oh ! and i love lovely people. they are lovely. yay.
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Thursday, February 5th, 2004
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| Time: | 8:10 pm. |
| Mood: |  annoyed. | | Music: | box full of sharp objects : the used. |
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today was extreamly frustrating. bleh. i hate how life is right now. going to be alone for valentines day once again. holly will be with dick.. all of my friends have someone. maybe i'm just not good enough ? heh. i suppose that could be true. but maybe it's my lack of selfesteem that drives people away ? but even though i have low selfesteem, all they do is make it better. i don't know what's wrong with me.
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Monday, February 2nd, 2004
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hey kiddies. i am in such a good mood right now !!!!!!! woooooo ! haha. lalalala. today was eventful. starbucks,amandas,lakeside mall,amandas,home. thats about it. lol. i'm having tennis withdrawls. that makes me sad. :(.
and it's okay if you have go away
just remember the telephone works both ways
and if I never ever hear it ring
if nothing else I'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause I'll remember everything you sang
you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm already finally out of words///
FIN.
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Sunday, February 1st, 2004
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| Time: | 7:09 pm. |
| Mood: |  happy. | | Music: | jason mraz : you and i both. |
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today was quite lovely. holly and i ordered chinese,and they delivered to her house. and we ate that, and it was good. i need to go shopping. i want to go to tiffany's because they have a new fragrance line. and i want to smell it, and possibly buy some because well, tiffany's is the fucking shit.hehe.
ANGIE!
we should hang out soon! IM me.
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| Time: | 1:00 pm. |
| Mood: | good. |
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The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide
I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find, you and I collide
Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
when i hear collide by howie day, i think of him.
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